It took me a long time to finally get to this point in my life. I know there is a long way still to go and it may be with me for the rest of my life. Mentally I guess I accepted it, it made me angry, bitter, sad, in denial, against all meds, refused to believe that all that I was reading and learning literally made it worse for my self. I had to take control of it, before it took over me completely and there is nothing worse than being in so much pain when there is no understanding what so ever, it can become the loneliest place in the world. It was easier to hide from reality, especially when you don’t look sick…
I don’t like the word depressed, more like sad, My heart ached for the old me, and my old ways. I will be forever grateful, for finding this support group, it has saved my life and showed me that there is a lot of beautiful people out there that are fighters just like me. We all have something no matter how big or small just happy we have each other to lean on to be strong.
I am so overwhelmed with this story that I didn’t tell you who I am. Well hi everyone (: My name is Monica Ramirez, I’m a mother of three beautiful teenage daughters, and a wife to a wonderful supportive husband (Thank You God) I also have RA, Fibro, as well as AS. So I want to take this opportunity to thank you Cookie Hopper, you truly are an amazing woman with a beautiful heart of gold!
I do not know where I would be with out the support of all you WaRRiors out there.I am proud to say that i am a face of Ankylosing Spondylitis standing tall and strong. ❤
Michigan, United States of America