Hannah Hoffman

Sometimes I close my eyes and I picture myself running. I visualize a green pasture with beautiful flowers and rolling hills and sunshine. When I open my eyes reality reminds me that I have AS and running….seems like just a dream.  But then I snap out of it and I remember that there is hope and that I should be thankful for modern medicine and a supportive circle of friends and family. I remember that there is God in all his glory in heaven smiling down on me with love and grace. I remind myself that there is no Ankylosing Spondylitis in heaven and that one day I will be pain free….FOREVER. I have just been diagnosed With AS at 23. My pain started at the age of 19 and I will never forget the first time I felt it. I remember walking to my car one day to go to class and a pain shot from my back to my knee and it literally knocked the breath out of me. Little did I know I would struggle so much trying to get a doctor to figure out my medical mystery for the next six years. The pain that was once just in my right side began to attack my left side. Before I knew it my knees were attacked then my hips and then my shoulders. Some days I feel like somebody has thrown me on the ground and kicked the life out of me. I am always tired and before my diagnosis I remember thinking….I cannot be this lazy…something has to be wrong with me. But I admire myself and I admire everyone who suffers with AS because we don’t give up….we fight. I tried everything from physical therapy, acupuncture, chiropractic manipulation, injections, prolotherapy, massage therapy, and I think my most extreme was a 21 day water only fast(please do not try that).  I cannot lie to you I am scared….but I am hopeful and I am glad I do not have to face this alone. There are 2 and a half million of us out there going through it together. I am starting Humira and I am hopeful…if this drug does not work I will try others. If none of these drugs work I am so determined I might just create my own drug. : )

I love you all and remember….GOD HAS YOUR BACK!

Raleigh North Carolina United States of America

One Response to “Hannah Hoffman”

  1. Dear Hannah,
    Thank you for sharing your story with us. I loved your positive attitude. If you need a guinne pig for your medical research call me!
    Remember from this day forward you are never alone.
    Sincerely Cookie

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